I'm too scared to work...

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I have this comic project that I'm doing in high school... and I absolutely hate it. It's been causing me nothing but stress.

This comic project is going to be my concentration, in other words, part of my portfolio that I'm going to enter in for colleges to see. To be honest, I am worried about time constraints and everything. I mean, I have wasted a lot of time, but that's not the big deal. In fact, I think that my problem of wasting time is just a problem caused by another problem. I think the problem is more about the concentration itself.

And don't get me wrong, I think I can do comic art. It's what I always have been doing, it's what I had interest in from the start, and it's been one of my dream careers. So what's bugging me? It's focused on HUMANS.

And to me, that's a big deal. It's not what I actually want to do, nor what I want to show often. In my heart, I always think it has been furries. Perhaps if I explain why I do furry art and what fancied my interest, it would help in understanding where I come from.

Ever since I was a child, I enjoyed comics. However, the reason why I fancied furry art is because in my opinion, it seemed fascinating to just see animals do things you'd normally see a human do. In fact, I think that supernatural elements in general is something fascinating because it wasn't real. It's something I don't see and may never see in real life, and it can only be seen in comic art and stories in general.

It's also why I like furry art. I used to do pokemon art all the time, but mainly I just wanted to do pokemon art to be a part of the "hip crowd." It wasn't until I discovered JackPyro's anthropomorphic pokemon that my interest in furry art was rekindled. In fact, I deviated away from Pokémon A LOT and started focusing more in furry art than ever. In fact, I think I was more fascinated in furry art than the audience. I mean, a lot of the general population see furry art as nothing more but porn. Yes, I can understand that, but it's just stereotypes.

And yes, that even got in the way of my furry art as well. I sometimes even hate the furries I draw, but that's just me putting myself in the general audience. In fact, I think I'm doing it again with this human comic. It's not what I find fascinating, it's more of what I think the colleges may find fascinating. There's like millions of comics containing humans anyways.

I know that furries are getting a lot of attention nowadays. Hell, my mom said that furry art is high in market as well. I also know that audiences want something different. I think I have always strived to appeal to audiences, with my human comic, my pokemon fan art, and even my furry art. Actually, I think I'm contradicting myself.

But I definitely feel extremely unsure with my human comic for now. While it may have taught me more on human anatomy, and while it did interest me into doing human characters, it's still not what I want to do...

But like I said, I have done furry art, and that is what I have done to appeal to the general audience...

I'm in a dilemma, and if I don't resolve this now and settle it for good... I think it may ruin my life forever. Should I just get the human comic done and over with, in the hopes that I can do all the furry art in the end? Or should I just stop the human comic, and switch it to a furry comic or start all over from scratch? Both are options that I have reluctance to, in the case of time and doing what I want as well as what comics are expecting from me...
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